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I feel pretty cruddy feeling depressed at the moment, with all the fires and so many people being affected by this tragedy. Mind you, with all the media coverage, it's hard not to get upset, even Dad, who Mum has never seen cry in the time she's known him, choked up while reading the paper the other day.

I guess the main problem at the moment is trying to figure out what to do with my life. Seems to be a continual problem with me! I might have mentioned that I do some cake decorating these days, but I think my little hobby is starting to get a bit out of hand! I made my friend's engagement cake for this weekend, which wasn't a problem, but then I found myself fielding questions about making wedding cakes (I've made one) and the like. I've had similar questions from friends of friends, it's not that I mind, I guess I just feel a bit weird making cakes for people I don't really know since I'm not a professional.
I am so busy these days, working full time, doing stuff for church, and then making cakes for people I wonder if it's getting in the way of me doing other things that are perhaps more important. My parents certainly seem to think so!
I enjoy making cakes and cake decorating. I guess it's just finding a balance, which is something I always seem to struggle with.

I'm 24 now, and finding that it's hard to make one's way in life! I'm still living at home, in a dead end job, and it's not looking like I'll be able to move out any time soon. Not only that, I have a distinct lack of any form on guy on the horizon. Now some of you might not think this is a big deal or anything to worry about, and truthfully, a while ago, it wouldn't have worried me either. I guess the problem is when looking at what I want from my life, I want a stable job that means something, where I'm actually achieving something (is that too much to ask?), a house, with a garden, a husband and a few (or more) kids, a car that runs without costing a fortune in the process.

Maybe I do want too much, maybe I'm expecting too much.

At the moment I guess all I can do is pray and hope that God will provide and guide me in the right direction, and at the same time be thankful for what I do have, a home, car (crappy though it is), a job (even if it sucks and the pay is way below lousy), friends, and of course the church and God.